Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Change of plans

Ok, so, my plan for this week has been majorly ruined for a number of reasons. 1) Apparently I had an essay thing to write and hand in yesterday, so I didn't get to do anything I had planned for yesterday. 2)This lead me to decide not to go to class today. 3) Apparently I have a mandatory activity tomorrow afternoon, which completely changes my plans for tomorrow as well. 4) I have this report to submit for that UN thing that I did, which I had completely forgotten to consider while making my plan. Gaaaah. Do any of you get like this when your plans get ruined? I just feel like hiding out in my bed for the entire day because I have no direction anymore. Does that make any sense? I suppose that I'll have to make a new plan for the week and try to stick to this new one as well as I can. Sigh. On a more positive note, I managed to keep my intake yesterday at 897cal, and I burned 872 walking to and from work and school, as well as working a four-hour shift. I also did a whole-body workout on Sunday and an ab-workout last night. It's depressing how out of shape I've gotten, but oh well, I guess that I have to start somewhere. It's also hard to exercise since I've been tachycardic (heart rate over 100 beats per minute) since getting bronchitis, so just a simple exercise sends my heart rate through the roof, which I'm really note used to (I'm usually mildly bradycardic because of all the running I (used to) do, so I'm usually in the high 50's). I don't think that I'll be able to manage a fasting day today, finally, since I'm home and that just makes me want to eat, but I'll most certainly try to be reasonable with my intake (read: no binging!). Anyways, I hope your week has been off to a good start! xx

P.S. Just a note to Bella: some lady at work last night decided that it was appropriate to tell how "a young lady like you shouldn't have nails like that, it's so unattractive, it's really not appropriate" blah blah blah. All I could think was 1)why is this any of your business? and 2)is it appropriate for a young lady like me to have scars of mean words up and down her legs? Ha. Anyways, just thought you might be able to relate.


  1. I kind of do but at the same time, I can't go lay in bed because then that ruins things further. My advice is to take a reseting 30-60 minutes, then make a list of what is dire today and then in two more days following. Just make a list of the little things you can get done like eating and showering and any silly thing like that that will help your mood. (i.e. more things to cross off the list, more happy productive feelings.)
    Don't let yourself stop. If you do, it will screw things up more and make you even grumpier/depressed. You're hanging upside down when this happens, I know. The main thing is to asses the ground then grab the branch and get back in. I know you can do it! Don't quit girl! Dig in and kick the semester remaining in the butt!
    Oh, and don't worry about being out of shape. Fitness is a constant process. <3 I'm thinking of you sweetie and hope you can get back on track. Don't let this ruin you, okay?
    I love you!

  2. i know what you mean about getting all upset when you spend a bunch of time preparing a plan and then it just falls apart day 1. i used to do that CONSTANTLY. i think you learn how to make reasonable requests of yourself though. but man, it takes time... et oui je suis francaise :) la je finis ma quatrieme annee a l'universite et j'etudie les maths. 1+1=2. see?

  3. Arrgh, that lady sounds infuriating. What an idiot. I'm so self-conscious about my fingers, I'm always hiding them.
    I hate it when my schedules get messed up, I can't imagine what it'd be like for you with such a crazily busy one. You can do this sweetie; deep breath, figure out your priorities, start drafting a new plan.
    Big hug to you girl! <3 xx