Ok, I have to admit something horribly embarrassing to you. A little over a year ago, I went through this pretty bad break up thing. To help boost my ego and get me out of my misery, my now-roommate-then-onlyreally-good-friend created a profile for me on a dating website. It was all good fun, flirting from the comfort of my room, and I met a few guys. I finally did the whole "dating thing", which I had never really done before. I know it's pretty pathetic, but this is where I met Dan. Which explains why we had absolutely nothing in common. But that's another story.
Anyways, now, when Dan and I broke up, my roommate decided that I should reopen my account, and that she would create her own. She's been pretty much having as much fun with it as I did last year, but I haven't. I've come to realize that I've become so cynical, so judgmental and so unimpressed by people, on top of having a hell of a lot less patience to deal with idiots, pervs and losers than I had last year. I know that it sounds me, but I'm calling it as I see it. Anyways, all this to say, that I've been less than impressed by the boys that I have spoken to, and it's just making me feel crummy.
Fast-forward to right now and to the reason why I'm posting. My roommate is on a date. Which is fine, I'm very much happy for her, but I thought that we were going to spend tonight hanging out together and stuff. I just feel really pathetic, because I basically only have her, and have absolutely no one to fall back on if she ditches me. And, at the same time, I feel selfish because, all those times that I went on dates or was with Dan, she was super supportive. If it makes any sense, that's kind of why I'm annoyed; she didn't even bother to tell me that she was going on a date. The times that I went out, she helped me get ready and figure out what to wear and all that. I know it's incredibly dumb, I just feel weird. I know, I know, I'm being stupid. Ok, Lena, get over it and move on.
In other news, ran again today, which was good, except that I keep getting that freaking pelvic pain every time I go. I think it's endometriosis, but I'm too embarrassed/absolutely hate getting touched to let my doc do a gyno exam. I know. Pathetic.
To add to my list of things-that-make-me-pathetic, I'm ridiculously excited to be getting my scale soon, haha. I just want it to be here already! :p
Food-wise, things have been ok, though I've been throwing up a lot. It's a problem, because even about a cup of water makes me feel sick, so I'm forced to drink it very slowly, or else I find myself vomiting water, which isn't fun at all. I got this sample of a meal-replacement smoothie at work, only 123 calories with 50% of the daily recommended vitamins/minerals, 1.5g of omega 3, 25% of the daily recommended fibre, 15g of protein, etc, etc. If I like it, I may get a bunch at discounted prices at work and just live off that. That's like my dream, haha
Anyways, I hope that your Saturday night is much more fun than mine is turning out to be. I might just go do some reading for this new Unit. What a nerd, huh? :p
Good night ladies!