Sunday, May 19, 2013

Pain and Prayers.

My grandfather, my Nonno, suffered a massive stroke today. He is completely paralyzed on his right side, and cannot speak. My beautiful, strong Nonno can only look up and make a half smile from his hospital bed, grasping our hands in his left one, still stronger than any of us. Half his face is sunken and expressionless, while the other half tells the entire story. I am sleeping at my Nonna's tonight, so that she isn't alone, but she is truly the bravest of us all.

It's as though part of me knew that this would happen; I spent all of yesterday and Friday wondering what I would do if he were gone.

Tonight, I truly feel the ache of my loneliness. There is no shoulder for me to cry on.  

Dear Lord, why do you cause us so much pain? Life, why do you kick those that are down?

As my Nonna keeps saying, "La strata è lunga." There is a long road ahead.


  1. Oh sweetheart, I'm so deeply saddened to hear this. You and your family will be in my thoughts. I have no words appropriate, but my heart goes out to you.
    Lots of love and a big ol' hug <3 xx

  2. this is such a beautifully written post. though it aches me to have to read it. i cannot come to imagine how hard all of this must be for you. as Bella said and i'll recite again - your faily will be in my thoughts and prayers. i cannot tell you that things will be better today or tomorrow. i can only tell you that we're all here for you. and we hope things get better for you, sweetheart.
    -Sam Lupin

  3. Hey love, I'm thinking of you. I know he means the world and I will be praying. You know where to find me if you need me. <3

  4. oh no i'm really sorry. we all have a place for you in our thoughts and in our heart.

  5. I really hope he will be ok! I remember when my grandfather had liver cancer, he had been in a coma for a couple weeks and a part of me hoped that once my mom and I arrived, he would wake up. I thought maybe he was just waiting for us, but it was not the case. He sounds like a strong man, so don't lose hope! He and your family will make it through this hard time.

  6. That is awful. My grandparents mean the world to me. My prayers & thoughts are with you.

  7. Keeping you and your family in my prayers.. I haven't seen my grandparents in years and I don't even want to think of how I would react if anything happened to them