Ok. Today was actually an ok day. I ran, planned, worked out a bunch of stuff, made appointments, dyed my hair (red again), and went to work. The only bad part is that we have this thief at work that keeps coming back, and he came in today and left before we could call the cops. Stupid. Grr.
Anyways, here's the plan. I'm leaving for Singapore in 51 days. I think that, until then, I should realistically be able to lose anywhere between 15 and 25 pounds. At least, that's the objective. I'm going to try to go back to what I was doing before the holidays that went so well and got me down to my lowest weight in years (still my higher than all of your weights, but anyways...). Before the Holidays, I was finally starting to feel a bit more comfortable with my body, and people were noticing the change. I want that feeling again. So bad.
I don't want to be unhealthy about it either, so I'm just going to do my best, cut down portion sizes, avoid binges, and listen to my body. At least, that's the plan.
As a secondary objective, I would like to get back to my old level of running fitness, which was at its peak before the Holidays as well. They both go hand-in-hand. So I want to get back to running religiously and progressively increasing my distances. Before I leave for Singapore, I want to be able to run 10k straight again, and I want to accumulate, over the 51 days, a total of 150k. It's doable.
I haven't been able to truly make objectives and feel confident about them in a long time. But I want this to work, I believe that it can.
As for my week, here is the schedule:
Saturday (tomorrow): run, cook fennel soup, do some reading, work 3pm-8pm.
Sunday: run, read, work 2-7
Monday: class 8:30-4:30, work 5-8, run.
Tuesday: class 8:30-2:30, hospital visit with the patient that I'm shadowing at 11 (meaning that I'll miss one class), run, coach 6-7:30.
Wednesday: family doc apt 8:30, ENT apt 9:30 (meaning that I'll miss 2 classes, at least), class 10:30-2:30, meeting with my shadowing group, run.
Thursday: class 9:30-4:30, run.
Friday: class 8:30-3:30, run, reading for the following week.
Saturday: coaching 10:30-12, run, work 3-.
It isn't quite as packed and hectic as the last few weeks have been so, if I go to bed at a reasonable time, it should work out ok. I can do this. Right? Right.
I also forgot to mention that, Wednesday, I went back to my parents' house for about 15 minutes for a shower after my soccer practice, and there was a huge blowout with my dad. I don't think that I've ever written about it, but my dad and I have major issues with each other. Anyways, things got super ugly and I ended up crying when I was back with my roommate (dudes, what's wrong with me these days, I'm always freaking crying, and in front of people on top of it!!). So, all this to say that I don't plan on going back home for a very long time.
But, now, I'm feeling a little positive for the first time in ages. It's a fresh start, a blank page. I get to decide how it turns out.