I've been wanting to write a "good" post for a while, with more of my thoughts and feelings and what's going through my mind, but I just haven't had the time. I also want to update on how things went with my family but, again, no time. So this will just be another food post, sorry for being so boring.
Sunday, at my Nonna's, I had some Pasta San Giuseppe, which is spaghetti with bread crumbs, raisins and pine nuts. Sooo yummy. Being vegan gave me the perfect excuse to avoid absolutely everything else that was being served except fruits and veggies. It was very difficult, trust me. I am born and bred from a culture that loves to eat. I also had some rice and tofu later that night, and a spoonful of Raisin Bran. All in all, not as bad a failure as it could have been.
Yesterday was supposed to be a 400cal day on the SGD, but I ended up having 530 (thin raisin bagel (170), 1 tbs peanut butter (100cal), 1 slice of whole wheat bread (90cal), 1/4 cup mixed nuts (170cal)), plus fruits. I did walk to and from work (-128 cal) and I worked a four-hour shift (-635cal), so I think I'm ok. That's how I'm rationalizing it at least.
Today, I haven't really eaten anything yet though I have set out some food (peanut butter (100cal), 2 vinta crackers (67cal) and granola (160cal), plus fruits). I haven't touched it yet because the bf is coming over soon and I think he's going to be bringing food.
I can't decide whether these intakes are good or bad, but I haven't been binging and haven't ben snacking like crazy at work, so I'm assuming that I'm eating a hell of a lot less than I was. I know that I'm a terrible restricter, but if I can at least keep myself from binging and throwing up, I feel like that's a good start, right? :S
Head-wise, things have been a serious mess and I haven't been able to go to school yet this week (not to mention that there is a snow storm today). And I am extremely anxious about going to NYC on Thursday; lots of non-sleeping, sharing a room with two boys, no privacy, nowhere to freak out alone and quietly, no roommate to help me calm down.... Gaahh....
I'll try to write a proper post before I leave, sorry for all the boringness. Lots has been going on, but I just don't have much time/energy to write. I'm still reading though! :)