Friday, March 15, 2013

Out of hiding

I'm back. As you can imagine, this week was seriously hell. Everything seemed to be going wrong, my computer has stopped working, I couldn't concentrate, it was a mess. But now it's over. And now it's time for me to get things back under control. I have been seriously slacking off since January. I had managed to lose about 20lbs before the Holidays and I have put them almost all back on. And then I wonder why. Well, duh, it's because I've been letting myself go, giving in to whatever, whenever. Before Christmas, I was doing so well. It's time for me to get back to it. I need a plan and I need to stick to it. And I have to stop looking at net and start looking at intake. Net is lying to me. It's time to shine. Enough of this being fat, feeling crappy, hating myself. This week has been hell because I have been too freaking lazy/tired/depressed/whatever to attend my classes. I'm in med school. It's a freaking miracle that I've been managing to get 70s while not attending a single class. Imagine what I could accomplish if I tried. And that starts with discipline. Shit just got serious, ladies. I need to set goals, respect them, feel like I'm achieving something. So I'm kick-starting it with a fast. No food until Sunday (when I have to go to my Nonna's (grandmother's) for St-Joseph's (San Giuseppe)). Then, Monday, I'm SGD-ing it. I don't want to set myself up for failure by ABC-ing it (yet), so I think that this is a good compromise. It's going to be difficult enough as it is because I am leaving for NYC this Thursday (for that Model UN thing) until Good Friday, and then there will be Easter. I'm going to try to keep myself in check in NYC, but I won't be able to avoid Easter (unless I want to make my Nonna cry which, no, I don't). So Easter and San Giuseppe are my freebies, but the rest is SGD. And I can't decide whether or not to count the walking that I do in there, but I'm thinking not because I tend to slack off when I do. Plus, in New York, it's going to be very difficult for me to keep track, especially since I'm sharing a room with two guys and I don't want to be obsessively mapping out routes to see how much we walked. So I think a "pure" SGD is a good idea. Here's the plan (as of Monday - below). This diet also doesn't count fruits and veggies, but I'm gonna try counting them and see how it goes. I know that for you "real" restrictors, this seems like a joke, but I've never been a restrictor and I just want to start off by breaking the binge/purge cycle. I'm also going to get back to running (haven't been in a week because of this madness) and my workout plan is starting today (I'll post what I've done later). Now please excuse me while I go catch up on your blogs :)

Hope you all have an amazing weekend/spring break!
Mucho love xx

Day 1. 400 calories
Day 2. 300 calories
Day 3. 400 calories
Day 4. 500 calories
Day 5. 450 calories
Day 6. 650 calories
Day 7. 650 calories
Day 8. 400 calories
Day 9. 300 calories
Day 10. 400 calories
Day 11. 500 calories
Day 12. 450 calories
Day 13. 650 calories
Day 14. 700 calories
Day 15. 400 calories
Day 16. 300 calories
Day 17. 400 calories
Day 18. 450 calories
Day 19. 500 calories
Day 20. 650 calories
Day 21. 700 calories
Day 22. 400 calories
Day 23. 300 calories
Day 24. 450 calories
Day 25. 500 calories
Day 26. 450 calories
Day 27. 650 calories
Day 28. 700 calories
Day 29. 400 calories
Day 30. Fast!


  1. I'm glad you made it through love! Actually, I think this is a good plan for people that are in college, you know? It's really hard to focus and work and do it all and your brain uses a lot anyway. 500 is my daily limit and I can be at it or under it as long as I eat healthy and don't cross it. You're golden, girl!
    lots of love hun!

    1. Yeah, exactly. I mean, I don't think it would be responsible for me to just cut it all down to what the ABC demands, mostly because I know that I won't be able to concentrate at all. And, yeah, that's the thing, I've been pretty much eating only healthy things (especially since going vegan), but it still feels like way too much.

  2. I'm glad you survived the week. Now you can take some time to breathe! :)
    I think it sounds like a decent amount of calories. At the moment I eat around 500 a day, which is basically the bare minimum I need to keep my blood sugars up. I used to eat much less, but it made me a 'frequent flyer' in hospital :-/
    Good luck with your fast. Try to keep yourself safe <3 xx

    1. Ah, yes, breathing is always good :)
      Yeah, I know about your hypoglycemia. I have hypoglycemia too, in general (so does my mom), so I'm always careful, but it makes things complicated when it comes to restricting.