I feel like my posts are always really down and depressing. I don't mean for them to be, I think that it might be because I'm just so tired and overwhelmed by the time I write them that I feel really down. This being said, I didn't get any work done today and I'm starting to freak out for my exam on Monday. I don't know how I'll get through this. My roommate keeps telling me "one day at a time." So that's what I'll do, one day at a time.
I had to apply for summer internships today (the deadline was March 1st) for when I get back from Singapore. I know that it's gonna be a crazy summer, but I really need this to get some money. Anyways, I applied to 27 different places. One has already replied saying their full, but I'm hoping that somewhere will want me. My CV is pretty good and I seem well-rounded on the outside, so hopefully things will work out. I also had to do some cooking because a bunch of food was going to go bad, so I kind of improvised this cream-of-random-veggies, inspired from a cream of fennel and mushroom. To make a long story short, I ended up cutting out the mushrooms, throwing in a bulb of fennel, some celery, a cucumber, some cauliflower and two potatoes, and switching the milk for soy milk. My roommate tasted some when she got home and said that it was great. Who would've guessed? I also had to cook some tofu, so I stir fried it with some mushrooms and garlic, soy sauce, hot pepper, sesame oil and cornstarch. Turned out pretty great too. Guess I was lucky.
I finally had a satisfactory net today of -700cal because of the extra long shift I worked on my feet and the cooking I did. Good news at last. Though I am exhausted. I'm also starting to develop these weird food hoarding habits. I'll set food out for myself and then leave a bunch there for days and days (in a tupperware), unable to ever convince myself to eat it. At work too; I work at a bulk food store, so I'll hoard nuts or candies or licorice or whatever, hiding them from people at work, taking them home to give to my roommate. It's all pretty strange. I don't know, do any of you do this? It's ok if I'm just a freak, haha
I'm hungry; eating vegan, I find it hard to ever be full. Guess that's a good thing.
Take care girlies, hope you're all doing well!