Mid-week, meh-week

I haven't been able to read and write as much as I would've liked so far this week because we've been having problems with the internet at the apartment, it fluctuates a lot, making it difficult to load pages and all that. My roommate is supposed to call tech support some time this week, so hopefully it will get fixed soon. It's so frustrating because all my work is online, so I really need access. Also, it's crazy how, after just a couple of days, I already miss this world. 

Yesterday and today haven't been great. I woke up feeling terribly sick yesterday so I did not go to any classes. And then the bf decided to sleep over last night. I don't like it when he just springs that on me because I have a single bed and already don't get much sleep, so I can't sleep at all when he's crammed in that tiny bed with me. Also, I have a lot of issues when it comes to being intimate with someone, and he just doesn't get that and always tries crossing boundaries that I've set up. Gives me so much anxiety. Today I had to meet a patient that I shadow at 10:30, so I just got up late and didn't go to any of the labs today, making me already 7 lectures and 2 labs behind after missing two days. I'm seriously the worst med student ever. I feel terribly lazy and guilty about it all the time. I was also supposed to have a dinner with work today, but I hate these kind of sit-down events with people that have very little in common with me and where I have to eat in front of people to seem normal. Just so not worth it. So I just called my manager and said that I had too much work on my plate and wouldn't be able to go. Such a coward, I know. But at least I didn't just nap at home; I cooked for nearly 5 hours straight, making 5 different recipes that I can freeze. My roommate doesn't cook, so I do all the cooking and I like getting it all done at once so that I don't have to prepare something when I get home at 9 after over 12 hours of school and work. I was a bit frustrated today though because my roommate has a tendency of opening things and letting them go bad, which forced me to throw a bunch away today. I also got the electricity bill from the last 2 months and nearly had a heart attack: over 285$. That's because it was terribly cold in January, reaching -40C with the windchill. But it's also partially because my roommate, though she's an environmentalist, is pretty wasteful with heating and electricity, running our bill high. So yeah, let's just say that this living on my own thing is running through my savings pretty fast.

Calorie-wise, the last couple of days have been so-so, with net intakes of 888 and 832 each. Not terribly, but not great either. I guess I can live with it though, at least for now, especially since I've been yo-yoing between extremes since the Holidays. Maybe being mediocre but stable will be better overall. At least that's how I'm trying to justify it, haha

Anyways, hope you are all doing well and I am so appreciative of my new readers. It's really nice to know that someone is listening :)

Take care! xx
P.S. Oh and I haven't thrown up in about a week, so yay, right? Ha, the things I strive for, so sad.