Sunday, February 10, 2013

Off to a rocky start

So, yeah, this weekend has been a bit of a fail, both food- and study-wise, because I stayed at the apartment all weekend, canceled all my activities in the hopes of studying like a maniac, but the bf came over and I ended up doing very little work. Which is a bit of a disaster because my finals are Thursday and I am so behind. I got a leave for the midterm a couple of weeks ago because I've been such a mess, but I swore to myself that I'd do this final. I just need to scrape a 60 overall, but I am so terribly behind that I don't know if it's going to be possible. It's like, once you're in med school, you aren't allowed to be sick or have stuff to deal with. Which clearly are both a reality for me. So, all in all, I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed right now, which puts me into the sort of paralyzed state where I just stare at my work for a really long time, rendering me even less productive. I guess I should get to it.

So happy to be writing again,


P.S. Haven't gotten a chance to catch up on blogs yet, but I have been looking at some thinspo, which is always relaxing and motivating for me, so that's good. Though the bf almost found my thinspo pages open on my laptop because he came over so unexpectedly. He also has kinda figured it out about my cutting, I think, because he noticed a bandage on my leg at the same place as last time and he kind of called me out about it. I was a terrible liar and just refused to talk about it. Very mature, obviously, but oh well.

1 comment:

  1. Aw sweetie! I know the feeling... I feel like a bloated whale anymore and I've been having some 700-800 calorie days and that makes me even more stressed. I understand the school stress. Our semester is only five weeks in but there's constant homework and readings and work and my research lab and not having any time to myself renders me the same... I just sit there trying and not making any headway. What you need to do is make sure you have 30-45 minutes at the very least for yourself. If you don't, you'll get even more overwhelmed. I'm thinking of you my dear and I'm sending you a huge hug. Glad you're back!
    PS, the gadget thing helped so now I'm following. :D