Off to a rocky start

So, yeah, this weekend has been a bit of a fail, both food- and study-wise, because I stayed at the apartment all weekend, canceled all my activities in the hopes of studying like a maniac, but the bf came over and I ended up doing very little work. Which is a bit of a disaster because my finals are Thursday and I am so behind. I got a leave for the midterm a couple of weeks ago because I've been such a mess, but I swore to myself that I'd do this final. I just need to scrape a 60 overall, but I am so terribly behind that I don't know if it's going to be possible. It's like, once you're in med school, you aren't allowed to be sick or have stuff to deal with. Which clearly are both a reality for me. So, all in all, I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed right now, which puts me into the sort of paralyzed state where I just stare at my work for a really long time, rendering me even less productive. I guess I should get to it.

So happy to be writing again,

E.

P.S. Haven't gotten a chance to catch up on blogs yet, but I have been looking at some thinspo, which is always relaxing and motivating for me, so that's good. Though the bf almost found my thinspo pages open on my laptop because he came over so unexpectedly. He also has kinda figured it out about my cutting, I think, because he noticed a bandage on my leg at the same place as last time and he kind of called me out about it. I was a terrible liar and just refused to talk about it. Very mature, obviously, but oh well.